Space Bound

It was Vanessa's 21st on Friday. I was pretty nervous going, each day approaching it, I kept changing my mind whether or not to go. Ended up deciding to go and missed my train. As I get out of the tram I see Fan and Angie, but they don't see me so I approached them from behind and say hi. Fan was super excited to see me after such a long time. We walk towards Alumbra and meet Vanessa and her friends.. Meeting new people isn't exactly one of my fortes, but hey I tried.

Vanessa tells me I have to line up in the guest list line because her VIP line is full. I'm there with a few of her friends, and introduce myself to them. As we're talking, the bouncer pulls me aside and starts telling me we can't go in. I was like "What, why? We're on the guest list" and then he starts talking about how the club is going to be full (we're there at 10pm, one of the very first lining up) and that the "eye in the sky" while pointing at the camera are only letting regulars in. From that moment on I knew he was bullshitting. Kev was there as a promoter tried to speak to the bouncer for me to tell him to let me in, but to no avail. So we were forced to get out of the line and I'm just standing there dumbfounded, what the fuck happened. Kev comes out and he tells me it was probably the fact that I just cut my hair and the piercings, got a mohawk now, shaved sides and a lame arse ratty that I need to get cut.

Haha god first time getting barred from a club. Well I guess that's something to tick off my to-do-list. I told Vanessa and Fan what happened, said it was nice seeing them again but I'll be going home. Kev told me James decided to come tonight, so I tell James I got barred and we decided to just have a few drinks for the night. It was good to catch up with him again.

Mm life.. I keep thinking about the world ending/post apocalypse. Its most likely from reading too much Fallout lore. Everything I see, I think about how I could use it to survive. My wardrobe, what clothes would be durable/practical. The only things were my thermals, and leather jacket.. Slim fit jeans ain't gonna cut it. And shoes.. god the shoes.. a pair of Vans with no grip, two pairs of dress shoes, and a pair of Zara casual shoes. I need to get a pair of steel capped hiking boots and some cargo pants. Weapons in my room: nunchaks, dumbbell bars.. But of course I am not entirely deluded from reality, thank god for that. Random how quickly this blog went from my fail Friday night to talking about my equipment to survive post apocalypse...

I did my best but my work went unnoticed. A lot of things from the past opened up again over this whole week. Life is back to boring now. In my mind though, I wonder when it'll get shaken up again with an unexpected hello from a new stranger or a ghost from the past.


I remember watching this a few months ago when it was released. And I'm watching it again right now. Yeh this blog is everywhere. I just want to keep writing, so I will no matter how incoherent it may get.

Everything is super quiet right now. Nothing is invoking thoughts. Its 1.14am and I don't want to go to uni tomorrow. I felt like that last week after Monday, I really didn't want to got to uni at all, but I some how did. I didn't wag a single tute or lecture at all. My first assignment is due this coming Thursday, I haven't started it but I will tomorrow. Stress for uni hasn't kicked in just yet.

Its funny for so long, so many years I wanted the voices to quiet down and stop talking. But now that I am here.. Its too quiet, I wish that they were still talking. Life is just too ordinary at the moment. Too bland, plain, tasteless. Sigh, guess I am going to wrap it up here.