Its all about the gaimz

So back to part time hours for me now! It's been a cumbersome road to this point. Many plans and ideals that need to start rolling are all about to happen. I was supposed to start playing Skyrim this week, but we have entered a League of Legends tournament. http://www.cybergamer.com.au/forums/thread/304464/MidCity-Melbourne-5v5-Tournament/ If you click the "Spoiler: Click to view" you will see all the teams. We're team number 13.

Creepsythe (Allen), imolestu (Phung) and myself, Mortifyd, with two randoms we found on the forum to get a team of five (we didn't decide on the team name by the way..). If we had Herbert and Lambert we would have a good chance in this tournament, but they left to go overseas on Sunday. The other two players are dragging us down which is unfortunate, and also that a professional gaming team sponsored by Razer has entered too, but hey just there to have fun and see what the competitive gaming scene is like in Melbourne.

I need to get ready for bed, long day a head tomorrow. Need to get in shape, and them mad guitar skills, and of course work at night.

If you only knew

I posted the lyrics to this song a while back. It only just popped into my head just then so I decided to post the song.

Sleep is for the weak

So very tired at the moment, lack of sleep for the last few days. Hoping to sleep in for once tomorrow. I feel like I'm getting old, unable to stay up late like I used to. Just one more week left of full time hours then I will be able to relax and calm down.

Follow your heart

When it comes down to the realisation of reality and the options laid in front of you. Do you seek the alternatives in life, or do you stay with the norm, never to deviate away because taking such risk, is well risky. Are the rewards you reap from it enough? If you choose the other option, and you need to change your entire life would you take that plunge?

I don't think many people would move away and leave their current life to chase a dream, passion, love, or to start again. We are so absorbed into our current lives and thinking about the alternatives that we would never follow. Stability is one of the most important pillars in life that everyone wants, but never realises. Give them the option to choose a job that pays extremely well but they hate, or a job that they love and pays next to nothing, most people would choose to do the job that pays extremely well. Why, because it grants that financial security. But some people will choose to do what the job the love. That is what else that drives human beings, passion.

Those who realise this and are willing to starve for a few days, to be in debt, just to do what they love, their passion never fading. How are people able to do that? They accept what hardships they may endure, but that satisfaction, that self fulfilment achieved by following their dreams and passions, weighs greater than that. To dive head first into the dark abyss for the treasure that lies beneath.

So risk it all, bet it all on black, quit the job you hate, tell your current circle of friends that you hate them and find new ones, change the life you lead. Dreams and passions can only do so much until you start to chase them. Have the strive to work at it, and to follow what's in your heart. You are the one who is in control of your own destiny.

I don't want you to be alone

And there she goes, gone again.

Dreams

Currently learning this song on guitar. Its about following dreams and being happy with what you have. I had finished my last exam on Monday and I have just been working since.

The Poison

Alright one exam left which is tomorrow. No stress. My head has been clear for the last few weeks, and I thought "Hey this is great, I can start to concentrate again". As I was driving to uni, I didn't have my music on, so it was just a quiet drive with the windows down and the air just rushing through the car. Just cruising and enjoying the weather. Out of no where the thought/voice in my head "Kevin you didn't fight hard enough for me". I instantly pulled up and parked on the side of the road. Those words, they were such poison, seeping through again.

I just sat in my car for five minutes, and thought to myself "I already accepted that I did the best I could, so why is this still able to haunt me?".

Oh well, uneventful day at uni other than that, just studying in the library. One more day and then it will be freedom, from 12.40pm tomorrow it's just 4 months of guitar, gym, work, and enjoying life as it is, enjoying the weather, company of friends. And then January 19th - February 10th Vietnam and Thailand! So stoked about it. Travelling with Phung and Allen, but that's only if Phung gets his shit together soon because he's going to the States with his family before coming to Vietnam. I am going to be buying one of those HD cams and just record the trip so watch this space after Feb with clips of us enjoying South East Asia.