Synopsis

Just a little recap of what has been happening lately. I've been writing this concept album/story thing over the last few weeks. So they do intertwine. I don't know if its good or not, but I definitely do enjoy writing what it. Its sort of like a fantasy escape. With all this creativity that is coming out I need an outlet for it. All I do is just sit down and start to write and it all just flows out. So yeh the general synopsis is about a guy, who is trying to find out who he is, what's his purpose on this world. He is a part of the Army of Xel, a cult connected to another world. His lust, cravings for torture, rape, murder, blood he tries to stop them as he realises that its not what he wants, but rather the Dark Passenger, the immortal being that rides in the hosts bodies. He hopes to escape it, thinking he does have control over it, but in the end fails and kills himself. Thinking he is free. But is he really? He was already dead from the start, Xel rose the dead and he was a part of them. Can the dead really rest? This is a work in progress, not sure how it'll end.

All within my hands

This bitter hatred for what you are
Have you forgotten where lies your roots?
Betrayed the brotherhood
The only true family you had
What compels you now?
What pushes you to continue on this godless endeavour?

Silence
I grew tired of it all
I had to escape from the world
To find myself in the chaos
All of these voices shouting my head
Telling me of things that weren't there
They lust for blood, pain, torture
Death

But can't you see, this is what it is to be you
You cannot deny any further
Accept your fate you useless piece of shit
You will never be free
These chains that bind
These bonds that lock
You will always be a part of it all
This ship you sail is headed for the rocks

But I will survive
There is hope
That is all I have
I won't let that go

Set out for sea

I am not scared anymore
The little boy that I once was is gone
No more cowering in the shadows
Taking action
Never going to wait again
The road is steady
Challenges await for me
My aim is ready
My vision is clear
This is life that I lead
I am the captain of this ship
Stand proud and tall
This is who you are
Wear this flag high

Damn nature, you scary

Does this feel familiar?
What a mess of a world we live in
Dying slowly, humanity has expanded too thinly
They try to control it all
No one can save the weak
Left behind in this bitter wake
The Earth cracked open
Swallowed them whole
The ocean engulfed this city
Such a pitiful sight
The empire that once stood
The Land of The Rising Sun
Crawling on its knees

Vocal Cover numero uno

Ahhh feel really nervous to upload this.. I really want to post it onto facebook, but at the same time right now I don't want to. So I'll just post it here. The description:
First recorded vocal cover. Took me a while to learn, its still actually quite hard getting the breathing right for the song, also the timing I was a off for some bits. Hope it was good. Still not so happy about my highs either, getting better though as I never used to work on them. Sounds a bit throaty at some points. You can hear my lungs struggling for the ending of the song. These are unedited vocals just microphone directly through to laptop so no amp. I think I had about 20 different takes over the last three weeks for this song. Slowly tweaking it until I got something satisfactory
The Darkest Day of Man (vocal cover) by Mortifyd

We are the disease

We are the disease
Blood born infection
The resurrected troops of a fallen race
Animated dead of Xel
Divide et impera
Veni, vidi, vici
This monolithic civilization
Rising to power
Infecting tribes transforming
Them into Legion
Nationalist, Imperialist, Totalitarian
Obliterating their previous identity
We are the disease
Total war
There is no escape
The dead will never rest

The Dark Passenger

Left to rot and make peace with myself
My body lies in this putrid mess of a home
The Dark Passenger sitting in the corner of the room
Staring into the abyss, the void of Xel
This other worldly experience
A concept I still cannot grasp
My whole life reflecting back
All happening simultaneously
Leading up to this moment
Only to rot away into nothingness
I couldn't handle the madness
The torture, the lust
Craving for that scent
The rush of blood
It consumes me, engulfs me into a trance
Psychotic episodes
Possessed by a higher being
Doing its bidding, The Dark Passenger
He needed his feed..
An urge I could no longer control
Piercing my neck with the shards of glass around
I thought this would be my only release
To these shackles, the cowards way out
Spitting out blood
I smile, I am finally free
Finally free
Free

Uni

Wow, I'm actually stressing about uni right now, and today was only the first day back. Really worried on how I will go and trying to force myself to study. I have never stressed so early in a semester of anything. I guess not studying for more than six months really does that to you. Reflecting on how I have done in the past, it is actually pretty daunting thinking about how am I going to pass everything, and actually start doing well too.

Have I finally gotten some maturity in me? Or will I fall back to giving up and making a half arse attempt at life again.