And it all came crashing down

Great..

Integers and Complexities

Why has she come back into my life. I thought I was going to be free of this.. I don't want to feel anything. Poison in my brain and soul. Feeding the scars. What to do, what to say. What do you want? Nothing adds up.

Relapse, retrack, rethink, restart.

I go out, binge myself by surrounding myself with people, yet there's always this hollow feeling. Everyone else seems no existent. I don't belong, I won't ever belong. They won't ever know.

Roads

The voice of loss is sighing through the rain
And as I turn around
Nothing's to be found
For hours now upon this endless road
Is it taking me
Where I long to be?

Alone...

Alone...

A soaring hope is reeling in my head
I can’t remember this
But it must be what I miss
Suddenly I find I’m standing still
Staring at the ground
Waiting for your sound

Again...

Again...

Cracks in the armour

I have these fits and bouts inside my head. They're sometimes in my dreams, lurking inside my subconscious. These moments I start to feel again yet they are so fleeting. Even if it's only pain and misery I don't feel anything else. The time is drawing clear when this timebomb explodes. Not sure what would be left.

Everything and nothing

What's left in this world when I feel nothing?

Absolutely everything

What will change when I run from everything?

Absolutely nothing

Six

I wish I was free of this

I see her in my dreams

Wish that she wasn't there

But she still haunts me as I

Still feel her breath on me

Still want to taste her skin

But I know that would kill me

The Birth of my Sanity

This blog is just a release, my escape from everything. So it may be cryptic at times or just down right direct. This will be my thoughts feelings and emotions. What goes on here really does go through my head. At times it may be fucked up other times I can be as normal as the rest of you.