A few weeks

It's been a while since I have posted something here. I just never found the time to do so. My parents and younger brother have been overseas for the last two weeks and will be back just a bit after the New Years. So I have just been self sustaining and it's nice having peace and quiet here. To be honest I'm not feeling very content with everything right now, I just want so much more yet I don't know what I can do to not feel this.

To be honest, I am not feeling very confident on my holiday to Vietnam and Thailand. I am actually feeling really nervous about this and not looking forward to it. With all the constant trolling that's happening usually I'm brushing it off but then there's times when it become overwhelming, trying to enjoy a night out/in. I know it's going to be an awesome trip with my mates, but there's that part of me where I am like: "we haven't sent our passports to get our Visas for Vietnam, we're relying on Allen's uncle to get us accommodation there too. Thailand is another story, Phuket we're still trying to find accommodation too, and also the flooding in Bangkok, most of it is cleared up now but yeh.

On the bright side though, I have gotten my tickets for Soundwave, Mastodon, Slipknot, Iced Earth, so after coming back from overseas its going to be jam packed with gigs! That's what I am excited for, but all that happens end of Feb and through to April.

I am dreading to go to work tomorrow, after a six day weekend I cannot be bothered. But the good thing is, I have finally gotten my tax and superannuation fixed up. I was getting taxed at the highest tax bracket for over a year and a half and I just finally got it fixed, I was also contributing another 7% of super deducted from my pay... On my last pay cheque I saw a huge jump in my income ahhhh, such a nice sight.

Mmm writing all this out has made me feel better, I was slightly brooding earlier but its okay now. Christmas was great at home, Matt prepared some baby-back ribs with Jack Daniel's sauce and also a side of chicken chips and beer battered prawns. I invited Phung over for dinner too seeing as his family weren't doing anything. I should plan to do something for New Years but I am not sure what yet.

Results

I have been meaning to make a post since last week about uni results. Well unfortunately I had failed two units. I can only look back and think, how did I let myself get so distracted with everything. I wasn't able to concentrate, for most of the semester and then when I had clarity it was in SWOTVAC, which gave me one week to study for my first exam. So I will be at uni for another semester on top of the two I have left. I didn't feel sad or depressed about the results, it was my fault that I let the semester slip by me. Its my job to get on top of it all and just do it, regardless of me feeling like I cannot be bothered, or that I just don't feel well.

Devourer

I see a dark hidden road
Beyond this valley I walk alone
Only the wind and the rain can be heard
The clouded night sky, is bleeding tonight
Gravel road has turned to mush
As I slip and fall to the ground
Crimson eyes glaring through the fog
Staring at what possible prey they may have sprung
They pounce from the shadows
Fangs bearing, razor sharp
Ready for flesh to be consumed
A feast for the night
A feast for the night
Let the rain wash away the blood
Let the wind blow away the scent
As I become one with the hunter
My mortal shell to be cycled for their needs
Piercing cries of pain, splitting the clouds
Cracking the sky
I will become one with the hunter

Deadweight

Feeling alright at the moment, compared to 12 hours ago where I felt like death. We had the League of Legends tournament today. It was pretty good, other than the fact that our other two players were absolutely noobs. Fortunately for us, Phung's brother's friend Truss was there. We only found out he played LoL two days ago and decided to add him as our sub. It was good able to support a good player, I would've given up all hope if I had to babysit one of the scrubnubs. The best part was we got 8th place and won our money back! If we had our mainline up and not the scrubnubs, we would've easily came second. It was a really fun day, we got to meet some cool people, and the organiser of the event was very well connected with the gaming community, and developers so it was cool to get to know him.

An oldie

I've been watching old wrestling vids, WWF/WCW/WWE and this song just had a huge overwhelming nostalgic feeling to it. I know wrestling is scripted but everything it reminds me of when I was kid, and how cool it was back then. I'll admit it is still extremely corny, but it was entertaining to watch.

There is a lot of the past that I won't forget, some parts that I have forgotten, except any time I see a sandpit I just remember back when I was in Prep (I was four or five at the time) and I had my awesome Green Power Ranger toy and I was drive him into the sand and now I scream out "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" at that thought, thinking about how much I was destroying it, with the sand in the joints and the scratches on the paint.

But yes, I digress, there also parts of the past that I still hold on to, wondering if they'll ever come into fruition. Sad memories have all been put aside, with happy memories being the first things that come to mind.

Can't wait until Friday for the Christmas party at work! So glad I am no longer working Saturdays so I can enjoy myself.
I need to get accommodation booked as well for next year. I struggled to sleep last night I am not sure why either. I got into bed around 2.45am, and was still awake when I eventually got out at 5am to take a piss. I got some sleep but was awoken by a text message from a mate. Hopefully tonight will be a lot better.

I had a random dream about a post apocalyptic world. It was on top of a trailer seeking out shelter with my younger brother Benson, and in the distance I could see a whole herd/stampede of some creature that I can't remember, they were either giant scorpions or something else, and eventually they made it to our location. Knocking over the trailer we stood on, and trying to kill us but somehow we were able to scare them away. I remember then seeing a building a top of small mountain. I don't know how I got there, but I was inside and the building was slanted a top of this mountain, I looked inside and there was food, and still some gas stoves running. A guitar was lying there, a clarinet too. It was high up like it was fortified but I woke up before anything else.

Alright I best go to sleep now.