What am I waiting for?

"I'm sorry" that's all I want to hear you say..

Edit:

So keep stabbing my heart.. What the hell am I thinking? Is there anything left in my life? Where the hell am I going? I can't express anything, it's all inside but I can't fucking express it, say it, display it. Even here which is supposed to be my escape, my relief, my conscience, my self expression, I can't do it.. I've fallen but no one will know this dark pit I am in.