Say, what now?
i guess we walk
where do I go?
guess we keep going forward
its been so many days i don't even know whats going on anymore
i just need to relax
we'll figure it out
I just keep going
suffocating
loneliness
we'll find something
anguish
we'll get over this
this life wasn't supposed to be like this
my whole life isn't supposed to be anyway
I'm not supposed to be like this
we are who
we are who we make ourselves
every step
worthless
meaningless
every step we take goes forward
I don't even know anymore
we're not supposed to know
it be as self told to us when it does
life go..
life goes where it takes it
life goes where we want it
where does life take us?
it takes exactly where we need to go
a million years ago it would've very easy
we go where we need to..
5 years ago it would've been very easy
and yet, its just not going away..
its a decision
this blank of piece of paper I just.. I don't understand
Where am I?
Where am I supposed to be?
We're exactly where we need to be
This life is just.. its just its.. its just the on going struggle to be something other than what you are,I mean I don't understand why can't I be myself
Why can't I just be..
Will anybody care about me if I'm not myself?
Wonder if anybody would care if am myself..
I've got too many questions
Too many answers
And then it breaks down into "where am I really? Do I know myself? Do i hear myself talking? These thoughts are just self serving, selfish ideas, that come out of nowhere really and break me down.
A soul's purpose in life is just to be loved
I don't even know if anybody really loves me. And I know that's selfish. But there's gotta be a little spot inside that has to be selfish
Out here it's just the cold, its just.. it's not safe.. its not safe anymore to be yourself..
the same questions, not enough answers. too many minds at work. they exist in troubled nonsense, how can you have common sense, if nothing makes sense, how can you have answers when all your left is with is more questions and thats all thats tied to this. Thats all that it is at the end of the day, thats all it will ever be. Its more and more chaos. I will find myself embracing it. Just take it away. I just need to find it. I just need to dig. I just hope that someone's listening..
Edit:
sigh..
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